Tsuyoku naru.

13th. July, 2014

Here I am once again. Genki da ne? :D

Currently tengah cuti sakan for about 2 months after completing my 2 years of pre-clinical. Alhamdulillah. I passed my First Professional Exams.
It's the mid of Ramadhan now by the way :)
Nanka, chotto shizuka desu.
...and kemalasan yang melampau lampau too. tak tau la ni ada kene mengene dengan sesi meng-qada'-kan segala tidur yang tak cukup time kat kolej dulu hikhik.

Put that aside, today's just one of the days where I would randomly let my tears down. Not really for a personal reason, it's due to the ending of a game and an anime. haha.
Oh not to mention, I lost count on how many times I cried watching Fairy Tail for the last two and a half weeks. *sobs* almost every episode, shikusho.
I wonder if I'm being a little extra sensitive or they are just tears-stimulating stories T-T
Jann wa nakitai.

Kedo ne, most of the things I did for these past few weeks, animes or games, the common message I could grasp is :

"It's good enough to be able to live, dakara, live on and don't give up on life no matter how hard it could be. Giving up on life or suicide is never an option."

As a Muslim too, I believe that being able to just breathe, we should be very much grateful to Allah.
In fact, I do once in a while feel like everything's not going according to my plan.
Often I break down in tears in the middle of the night, pillows absorbing the flowing tears, almost feel like I have nothing else to pull me back up again.
That's when the message above gave me just the reason to carve a smile back on my face.

"Ikitai yo kimi no tokoro he chiisana te wo nigirishimete

Nakitai yo sore wa sore wa kirei na sora datta

Negai wo nagareboshi ni sotto tonaete mitakeredo

Nakitai yo todoka nai omoi wo kono sora ni~"

[I want to go to where you are, clenching my small hands

I want to cry, it was such a beautiful sky

I tried silently wishing on a shooting star

But I won't cry, the wish will go through, into the beautiful sky~]

- Planetarium by Otsuka Ai -

It's okay to cry though. Crying eases your pain. But never give up. Get back up again, insyaALLAH.

Ganbare minna ! Jann mo ganbarimasu !