Things that I can't seem to express orally

"About months ago you were just a random guy.
I realized your existence but you never caught my attention.
You have the looks, but I wasn't looking.
When your picture was taken along with your friends, I'd recognize your friends first.
I think I had talked to you before, but it was merely something to talk about.
Couples of hi's and bye's, smiles meeting smiles.
Barely had any real conversations.

I never knew when I started to fall.
It developed as I grew to know you more.
I heard about you once and that ticks my heart.
Then suddenly as if fate planned a chance for us to talk.
We talked and talked without facing each other,
and when it comes to meeting, it was kinda awkward.
I still can't figure out why I'd fallen.

Now, it worsens.
The feelings I had started to grow more.
Whenever I see your picture, I went tachycardiac.
Whenever I heard your name, I tend to be extra alert.
Whenever I heard that tone coming, I was utterly overexcited and would smile alone.
Some might know the reason why, some may not.
Sometimes these tears starts to fall when it's been so long I haven't heard from you.
Long, in my own definition.

I thought I'd get this over with already since that one incident.
Now I seemed to be falling again.
Mysterious person, I seem to fall under your spell.
You might be the reason I'm happy or melancholy.
Who are you now and who are you in the future,
that is the question I'm seeking the answer to.
Hoping you are the one destined for me.
I kept praying that if this doesn't stop, you would be the one.
As I vowed not to let myself hurt anymore.

For now, all I can do is to pray.
Pray for your and my success in achieving what we wanted.
We're both are in the same line but sometimes I feel that we're different.
In the end, I'd pray to Him
Let it flow due time.
And see what happens.
But in the meantime, I can't avoid from this feeling.
So much I tried to ignore, it kept coming back.
All I can do in the end is wait and pray.
For He knows what we do not know of.
and He is the best planner of all plans planned.
Subhanallah."

Saturday,
October 5th, 2013
03:46 am