'SUPPPP? :DDDD
Okay so I think Allah just sent me a very clear message and I feel like it's really a sign for me.
Though somehow my happy and jolly mood of completing my GIT Final Exam was somehow disturbed but Heyyy. Look on the bright side, it's actually just what I need to move on.
Hooray to me :D
"We come into this world unknown
But know that we are not alone
They try and knock us down
But change is coming, it's our time now
Hey, everybody loses it,
Everybody wants to throw it all away sometimes
And hey, yeah I know what you're going through
Don't let it get the best of you, you'll make it out alive
Hey, this is not a funeral
It's a revolution, after all your tears have turned to rage
Just wait, everything will be okay
Even when you're feeling like it's going down in flames"
Leaving the past, move towards the future. :3
I shall do that.
To be honest, I feel much relieved and I guess I can wipe my hands and shake it off and stand.
"Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand,
Then you stand"
Saturday 16 November 2013
Monday 28 October 2013
Hope
It's better to stop hoping for something from someone to happen.
Especially hoping from another human being.
In the end, it's hurt what you will get.
If you want to hope,
Put hope from the Almighty.
He will give you what you need most.
There's no such thing as broken-hearted when you hope from Him
InsyaALLAH :)
Especially hoping from another human being.
In the end, it's hurt what you will get.
If you want to hope,
Put hope from the Almighty.
He will give you what you need most.
There's no such thing as broken-hearted when you hope from Him
InsyaALLAH :)
Friday 18 October 2013
The Unexpected Outcome
Well, the truth is finally out.
I managed to know the real thing.
To be honest, I wasn't that sad cause I can almost guess.
The reason I've confessed is not because I want to have the same in return.
It's because I knew the outcome, so I just want to let you know.
I'm not putting hopes at all.
But, the question is, why are you running away?
We were friends before, can't we stay that way?
If you were scared that I'd be heart broken and that I'll fall for you again,
Then no. I know my limit. I'm not stupid enough to keep holding on.
Or maybe the fact I confessed actually burdened you and that you can't even take a glance of my face, is that it?
If that's the case, I'm sorry.
You said that we could talk as usual again.
But it seems you're the one who's running away.
Making things even more awkward.
If you say you were not, I can see you're lying.
If you really were burdened with what I did, then fine.
I won't try to approach you no more.
Even as a friend.
What really hurts is that the fact you were running away from me.
I don't intend to chase you honestly.
Don't get me wrong.
I'm not that desperate.
No, I'm not.
I'm cool with just being friends.
Rather than strangers, I'd prefer we could be silly together as friends
If only I knew you're gonna do this to me, I'd rather keep it to myself.
I thought you were smart enough to handle such thing.
I was wrong.
"Go ahead and run. I don't intend to chase you anyway...."
I managed to know the real thing.
To be honest, I wasn't that sad cause I can almost guess.
The reason I've confessed is not because I want to have the same in return.
It's because I knew the outcome, so I just want to let you know.
I'm not putting hopes at all.
But, the question is, why are you running away?
We were friends before, can't we stay that way?
If you were scared that I'd be heart broken and that I'll fall for you again,
Then no. I know my limit. I'm not stupid enough to keep holding on.
Or maybe the fact I confessed actually burdened you and that you can't even take a glance of my face, is that it?
If that's the case, I'm sorry.
You said that we could talk as usual again.
But it seems you're the one who's running away.
Making things even more awkward.
If you say you were not, I can see you're lying.
If you really were burdened with what I did, then fine.
I won't try to approach you no more.
Even as a friend.
What really hurts is that the fact you were running away from me.
I don't intend to chase you honestly.
Don't get me wrong.
I'm not that desperate.
No, I'm not.
I'm cool with just being friends.
Rather than strangers, I'd prefer we could be silly together as friends
If only I knew you're gonna do this to me, I'd rather keep it to myself.
I thought you were smart enough to handle such thing.
I was wrong.
"Go ahead and run. I don't intend to chase you anyway...."
Sunday 13 October 2013
40 Questionnaires that somehow might make you know me a bit better?
Answer these questions as honest as you can, no force.
1) Have you ever been asked out?
Yes, I guess.
2) Where was your default picture taken?
In my room, on my bed
3) What's your middle name?
*counts name and finds the midpoint* Binti! :D
4) Your current relationship status?
Single. Looking for a future zauj, not temporary partner.
5) What is your current mood?
Intermediate happy.
6) What color shirt are you wearing ?
Purple
7) Missing something ?
Yes
8) If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
Well, this is IF, which is impossible. IF, maybe I would change how I behave. Attitude, to be precise
9) If you must be an animal for one day, what?
Animal? Hmm. I wanna be a dwagooownn :3 k jk. it doesn't even exist. Never thought of it actually. A kitty maybe?
10) Ever had a near death experience ?
So far no. Nauzubillah ='(
11) Something you do a lot?
Babbling at Twitter. Tweeting nonsense that I believe many are pissed off with it.
12) The song stuck in your head ?
Heart Attack by Demi Lovato atm.
13) Who did you copy and paste this from?
Kak Farhawa hehe~
14) Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Nur Fatin Qistinaaa ! :D My twin that I met in Perfect World!
15) When was the last time you cried?
Last two nights. When I was about to sleep.
16) Have you ever sung in front of a large audience? .
Does choir included? :D
17) If you could have one super power what would it be?
To change people's sadness into happiness. To change grief into joy, To turn sorrow into jolly.
18) What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
His smile.
19) Who was the last person that made you happy?
My family. They always do.
21) What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Usually Green Tea Frappe. But now I don't do Starbucks for some reason.
22) What's your biggest secret?
If I say it here, it's not a secret anymore now is it?
23) Favorite color?
Purple
24) Do you still watch kiddie movies or tv shows?
Both haha. I am twennyy but that ain't stopping meh from them kiddie showss nope .
25) What's on your walls?
Umm, nothing?
26) What are you?
I am the Princess of Mars, jk. I am Jann. I am one heck of an emotional damsel who knows that she couldn't be perfect but hoping the people around her would stay.
27) Do you speak any other language?
uhh not really. Malay and english only. a bit of bad japanese tho :D
28) What's your favorite smell?
Vanilla :)
29) Describe your life in one word ?
Unpredictable
30) Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Now who would do that actually. haha.
31) What are you thinking about right now?
"Why are we like this?"
33) What should you be doing?
Playing Outlast game HAHA.
34) Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
....can't remember.
35) Do you ever trapped in a love triangle?
I'm not that sure :|
36) Your talent that you're really want to show off?
Err idk. I'm quite okay with my drawings but still need a loooot of improvement to really show off you knoww
37) If you had a chance to erase some of your memories, what are you really want to forget?
Nothing. My past is what guides me to what I am now. :)
38) Do you act differently around the person you like?
Yeah kinda. I tend to be more feminine hahaha. oops.
39) What is your natural hair color?
Silky Black :P okay jk just plain black.
40) Who was the last person to make you cry ?
That guy. but it's not his fault. it's just something that I thought about him that made me cry.
1) Have you ever been asked out?
Yes, I guess.
2) Where was your default picture taken?
In my room, on my bed
3) What's your middle name?
*counts name and finds the midpoint* Binti! :D
4) Your current relationship status?
Single. Looking for a future zauj, not temporary partner.
5) What is your current mood?
Intermediate happy.
6) What color shirt are you wearing ?
Purple
7) Missing something ?
Yes
8) If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
Well, this is IF, which is impossible. IF, maybe I would change how I behave. Attitude, to be precise
9) If you must be an animal for one day, what?
Animal? Hmm. I wanna be a dwagooownn :3 k jk. it doesn't even exist. Never thought of it actually. A kitty maybe?
10) Ever had a near death experience ?
So far no. Nauzubillah ='(
11) Something you do a lot?
Babbling at Twitter. Tweeting nonsense that I believe many are pissed off with it.
12) The song stuck in your head ?
Heart Attack by Demi Lovato atm.
13) Who did you copy and paste this from?
Kak Farhawa hehe~
14) Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Nur Fatin Qistinaaa ! :D My twin that I met in Perfect World!
15) When was the last time you cried?
Last two nights. When I was about to sleep.
16) Have you ever sung in front of a large audience? .
Does choir included? :D
17) If you could have one super power what would it be?
To change people's sadness into happiness. To change grief into joy, To turn sorrow into jolly.
18) What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
His smile.
19) Who was the last person that made you happy?
My family. They always do.
21) What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Usually Green Tea Frappe. But now I don't do Starbucks for some reason.
22) What's your biggest secret?
If I say it here, it's not a secret anymore now is it?
23) Favorite color?
Purple
24) Do you still watch kiddie movies or tv shows?
Both haha. I am twennyy but that ain't stopping meh from them kiddie showss nope .
25) What's on your walls?
Umm, nothing?
26) What are you?
I am the Princess of Mars, jk. I am Jann. I am one heck of an emotional damsel who knows that she couldn't be perfect but hoping the people around her would stay.
27) Do you speak any other language?
uhh not really. Malay and english only. a bit of bad japanese tho :D
28) What's your favorite smell?
Vanilla :)
29) Describe your life in one word ?
Unpredictable
30) Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Now who would do that actually. haha.
31) What are you thinking about right now?
"Why are we like this?"
33) What should you be doing?
Playing Outlast game HAHA.
34) Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
....can't remember.
35) Do you ever trapped in a love triangle?
I'm not that sure :|
36) Your talent that you're really want to show off?
Err idk. I'm quite okay with my drawings but still need a loooot of improvement to really show off you knoww
37) If you had a chance to erase some of your memories, what are you really want to forget?
Nothing. My past is what guides me to what I am now. :)
38) Do you act differently around the person you like?
Yeah kinda. I tend to be more feminine hahaha. oops.
39) What is your natural hair color?
Silky Black :P okay jk just plain black.
40) Who was the last person to make you cry ?
That guy. but it's not his fault. it's just something that I thought about him that made me cry.
Tuesday 8 October 2013
I just want to express this sadness in writing, don't mind me.
Well, lately it's been not so good. For the past few days actually. Reasons? Hmm, bagi orang lain remeh temeh la kot.
Hati rasa cam tak tenang ditambah dengan stress 1st week GIT yang sangat2 ikan sardin packednya. Plus the feeling of doubt. Furious sket. Risau. All in one go baby, all in one go. I don't know how to survive all these with a smile.
Dengan Abang operate mata due to retinal detachment dy, but Alhamdulillah, Allah ease everything :) hilang jugak la satu kerisauan.
Dengan nak mengelak dari terserempak dengan sorang ni, tapi just hoping die sehat walafiat. Reason mengelak? hmm, xtau kenapa. Rasa nak lari haha. Rase bersalah ada, rasa sedih ada. Jangan pikir bukan bukan, aku xde boypreng. Boypreng aku tuu yg kene operate tu =.=
Then tadi, dok scroll whatsapp, nampak gambar Acik A and Uncle J. Sedih memang sedih. Marah memang marah. Tapi tengok gambar depa kat whatsapp tu, rasa nak menangis je. I want my family back. I want those good memories to be revived. Rindu masa dulu2 , time raya, siap xnk dok kete sendiri, nak pegi beraya dengan dyorg since destination sama. Rindu nak gelak gelak dengan sume aunty dgn uncle.
Dah jadi waterfall da ni...
I want my family back.
I want the real smiles and laughter back.
I want to celebrate Eid with joy like the old days.
I want to have family gathering like we used to.
It seems so hard dengan keadaan camni nak ubah balik to what we used to.
Apart from marah, lagi sedih sebenarnya sebab tak dapat jadi cam dulu.
Seeing others celebrate macam2 dgn big family dyorg always made me shed my tears.
Tapi, I know, what they did was wrong.
And what we're going through ada hikmah dari-Nya.
But I just can't seem to be calm with it.
When I'm stressed about something, all of it seemed to come the whole package.
And end up, I'm crying again. No differ from a real crybaby. Cause I really am one.
Sunday 6 October 2013
Saturday 5 October 2013
Things that I can't seem to express orally
"About months ago you were just a random guy.
I realized your existence but you never caught my attention.
You have the looks, but I wasn't looking.
When your picture was taken along with your friends, I'd recognize your friends first.
I think I had talked to you before, but it was merely something to talk about.
Couples of hi's and bye's, smiles meeting smiles.
Barely had any real conversations.
I never knew when I started to fall.
It developed as I grew to know you more.
I heard about you once and that ticks my heart.
Then suddenly as if fate planned a chance for us to talk.
We talked and talked without facing each other,
and when it comes to meeting, it was kinda awkward.
I still can't figure out why I'd fallen.
Now, it worsens.
The feelings I had started to grow more.
Whenever I see your picture, I went tachycardiac.
Whenever I heard your name, I tend to be extra alert.
Whenever I heard that tone coming, I was utterly overexcited and would smile alone.
Some might know the reason why, some may not.
Sometimes these tears starts to fall when it's been so long I haven't heard from you.
Long, in my own definition.
I thought I'd get this over with already since that one incident.
Now I seemed to be falling again.
Mysterious person, I seem to fall under your spell.
You might be the reason I'm happy or melancholy.
Who are you now and who are you in the future,
that is the question I'm seeking the answer to.
Hoping you are the one destined for me.
I kept praying that if this doesn't stop, you would be the one.
As I vowed not to let myself hurt anymore.
For now, all I can do is to pray.
Pray for your and my success in achieving what we wanted.
We're both are in the same line but sometimes I feel that we're different.
In the end, I'd pray to Him
Let it flow due time.
And see what happens.
But in the meantime, I can't avoid from this feeling.
So much I tried to ignore, it kept coming back.
All I can do in the end is wait and pray.
For He knows what we do not know of.
and He is the best planner of all plans planned.
Subhanallah."
Saturday,
October 5th, 2013
03:46 am
I realized your existence but you never caught my attention.
You have the looks, but I wasn't looking.
When your picture was taken along with your friends, I'd recognize your friends first.
I think I had talked to you before, but it was merely something to talk about.
Couples of hi's and bye's, smiles meeting smiles.
Barely had any real conversations.
I never knew when I started to fall.
It developed as I grew to know you more.
I heard about you once and that ticks my heart.
Then suddenly as if fate planned a chance for us to talk.
We talked and talked without facing each other,
and when it comes to meeting, it was kinda awkward.
I still can't figure out why I'd fallen.
Now, it worsens.
The feelings I had started to grow more.
Whenever I see your picture, I went tachycardiac.
Whenever I heard your name, I tend to be extra alert.
Whenever I heard that tone coming, I was utterly overexcited and would smile alone.
Some might know the reason why, some may not.
Sometimes these tears starts to fall when it's been so long I haven't heard from you.
Long, in my own definition.
I thought I'd get this over with already since that one incident.
Now I seemed to be falling again.
Mysterious person, I seem to fall under your spell.
You might be the reason I'm happy or melancholy.
Who are you now and who are you in the future,
that is the question I'm seeking the answer to.
Hoping you are the one destined for me.
I kept praying that if this doesn't stop, you would be the one.
As I vowed not to let myself hurt anymore.
For now, all I can do is to pray.
Pray for your and my success in achieving what we wanted.
We're both are in the same line but sometimes I feel that we're different.
In the end, I'd pray to Him
Let it flow due time.
And see what happens.
But in the meantime, I can't avoid from this feeling.
So much I tried to ignore, it kept coming back.
All I can do in the end is wait and pray.
For He knows what we do not know of.
and He is the best planner of all plans planned.
Subhanallah."
Saturday,
October 5th, 2013
03:46 am
Thursday 12 September 2013
Emotional Expression of the Day-----OSCE-related
"Writing down your emotions has many health benefits."
Well I wasn't sure whether this is evidence-based or was proven via statistics or logistics but oh well. That actually made me feel like blogging in the middle of the early morning.
As-Salamualykum peeps of the woooooooorld.
Okay so sebeno beno benonye lah kan, Jann ade Respiratory End-of-Block Exam this Friday. hihi. tapi aku dok blogging plak time time camni. nampak tak aku nak ngelat study?
well not really ngelat. taking a break, without kit kat lah tapinye hehe.
Alright now where were we?
Ah, writing down emotions.
Okay sebeno beno benonye jugalah kan tadi Jann ade exam OSCE. sapa taktau, go and seek Mr.Google. konpem terus pahe. okay so that was my first OSCE la actually. kene test Respiratory and Cardiovascular System. honestly I wasn't that panic *ecewah kerek* well, ade la gelabah kambing sket tapi liekkk you knowwww takde la beriya macam "uwarrgghhh OSCEEEE aku nak matiiii cuaaaaak nak meletooooop perooooot" liddat. tu overly emosi sangat tu. just that cam takut la sket sket.
Orang kata, panic do you no good. So I kept calm laa, kot.
TAPI CALM SANGAT PON TAK BOLEHHHHH
kenapa?
Okay here the story begins.
Aku masuk Station 1, otak aku yang kononnye calm, tetibe blank. masuk je pintu, tgk examiner, tengok simulated patient (SP) yang aku dop kenai, terus aku blank. tapi obviously not because SP tu hotsetap ke, examiner tu mcm gimau ke ape. I don't know. My mind went blank. Absolutely, defo-ly NOT GOOD. After buat examination pe sume, then, examiner tanya soalan and I can't think well. I DON'T KNOW WHYYY. Last last, tense, awkward moment in the room, zzz and puff I can't answer sampai siren annoying tu bunyik. My 1st station tu mcm "OMG SORE LOSER LAH AKUU NIII"
but Alhamdulillah, my second station I was waaaay calmer (kejap kejap tengok instruction btw, hihi) walaupun ade part aku terlupa nak buat. not really lupe. tapi I didn't know kene buat tuu. Well tadi aku nak buat general inspection, depa kata "Read the instructions" so okay fine, aku ikot je laaa arahan tu. Then second station kata "Check the patient's radial pulse" otak aku punya laa straight forward sangat, aku dok kira rate ja =.= segala rhythm, volume, collapsing pulse even, haram sume aku tak buat. padahal beriya dok practice kat orang sampai naik muntah da practice. I know all those things but I didn't know I had to do thaaat.
HAHA. Well, at least I managed to ignore the flaws of the 1st station and did better in the second one. Bak kata Dr.Hazian, "Forget your first love. In OSCE, forget about what you did wrong in the previous station and proceed onto the next one" haha btw, I love how she talks and she talk good stuffs too tau :D
So my conclusion is :
"There's always a first time in everything and don't expect to be perfect in the 1st time of anything"
I have no regrets, okay tipu, ade la actually. But I'd prefer that to be a lesson to be better and improve for the next time. Well for now, just hoping I would pass and that I excel for the final written exam this Friday, insyaALLAH.
Fuhh. There goes my expression for the day xD
Oh btw, td balek OSCE truih beli Takoyaki 10 bijik kat sebelah bus stand StreetMall. kahkah. stress punya pasal :3 AND it was SUPERRR oishiii~ ♥ pas makan takoyaki, terlelap. hahaha. dasyhat sungguh efek OSCE ni.
Okay cukup la for today. Kene sambung study balek or I'll be dead meat.
Adieu~
Well I wasn't sure whether this is evidence-based or was proven via statistics or logistics but oh well. That actually made me feel like blogging in the middle of the early morning.
As-Salamualykum peeps of the woooooooorld.
Okay so sebeno beno benonye lah kan, Jann ade Respiratory End-of-Block Exam this Friday. hihi. tapi aku dok blogging plak time time camni. nampak tak aku nak ngelat study?
well not really ngelat. taking a break, without kit kat lah tapinye hehe.
Alright now where were we?
Ah, writing down emotions.
Okay sebeno beno benonye jugalah kan tadi Jann ade exam OSCE. sapa taktau, go and seek Mr.Google. konpem terus pahe. okay so that was my first OSCE la actually. kene test Respiratory and Cardiovascular System. honestly I wasn't that panic *ecewah kerek* well, ade la gelabah kambing sket tapi liekkk you knowwww takde la beriya macam "uwarrgghhh OSCEEEE aku nak matiiii cuaaaaak nak meletooooop perooooot" liddat. tu overly emosi sangat tu. just that cam takut la sket sket.
Orang kata, panic do you no good. So I kept calm laa, kot.
TAPI CALM SANGAT PON TAK BOLEHHHHH
kenapa?
Okay here the story begins.
Aku masuk Station 1, otak aku yang kononnye calm, tetibe blank. masuk je pintu, tgk examiner, tengok simulated patient (SP) yang aku dop kenai, terus aku blank. tapi obviously not because SP tu hotsetap ke, examiner tu mcm gimau ke ape. I don't know. My mind went blank. Absolutely, defo-ly NOT GOOD. After buat examination pe sume, then, examiner tanya soalan and I can't think well. I DON'T KNOW WHYYY. Last last, tense, awkward moment in the room, zzz and puff I can't answer sampai siren annoying tu bunyik. My 1st station tu mcm "OMG SORE LOSER LAH AKUU NIII"
but Alhamdulillah, my second station I was waaaay calmer (kejap kejap tengok instruction btw, hihi) walaupun ade part aku terlupa nak buat. not really lupe. tapi I didn't know kene buat tuu. Well tadi aku nak buat general inspection, depa kata "Read the instructions" so okay fine, aku ikot je laaa arahan tu. Then second station kata "Check the patient's radial pulse" otak aku punya laa straight forward sangat, aku dok kira rate ja =.= segala rhythm, volume, collapsing pulse even, haram sume aku tak buat. padahal beriya dok practice kat orang sampai naik muntah da practice. I know all those things but I didn't know I had to do thaaat.
HAHA. Well, at least I managed to ignore the flaws of the 1st station and did better in the second one. Bak kata Dr.Hazian, "Forget your first love. In OSCE, forget about what you did wrong in the previous station and proceed onto the next one" haha btw, I love how she talks and she talk good stuffs too tau :D
So my conclusion is :
"There's always a first time in everything and don't expect to be perfect in the 1st time of anything"
I have no regrets, okay tipu, ade la actually. But I'd prefer that to be a lesson to be better and improve for the next time. Well for now, just hoping I would pass and that I excel for the final written exam this Friday, insyaALLAH.
Fuhh. There goes my expression for the day xD
Oh btw, td balek OSCE truih beli Takoyaki 10 bijik kat sebelah bus stand StreetMall. kahkah. stress punya pasal :3 AND it was SUPERRR oishiii~ ♥ pas makan takoyaki, terlelap. hahaha. dasyhat sungguh efek OSCE ni.
Okay cukup la for today. Kene sambung study balek or I'll be dead meat.
Adieu~
Monday 19 August 2013
Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku tidak dapat lari daripada merasai ketakutan ini
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
As-Salamualykummm. apa khabarmu di sana? Lama sudah tak berjumpaa *nyanyi*
eh kemain lagi makcik ni menyanyi, padahal tengok title macam gelabah ayam takut ape.
Okay yeah so basically, ni bukan lah ade kaitan dengan hantu ataupun patung Annabelle.
tapi ni kire takut sebab Jann nak masuk 2nd Year.
Alhamdulillah, syukur sebab pass 1st Year. but you knowww, kechuutt perutt wehh.
Serious lah. Ini punye takut bukan la ngengade punye. =.= jangan salah paham.
Bila fikir2 balek, masuk seken yer ni, dengan Professional Exam nyer, dengan macam macam nye lah hai.
Tak tau kenapa tapi seriouslah takut yang amat. Terfikir gak la kan, wuuu will I be okayy? What happen kalau aku xleh nak adapt? xleh nak habis study?
(Ohooyy makcik punye pessimist sebenonye boleh tahan mintak pelempang kadang2)
*dabel headbang on the wall* okay penipu, ta buat pon. gimik je.
Aaaaaapa apa pon, I had a wonderful holiday I guess. Alhamdulillah well spent. Kalau pasal gumbira tu hihihi *ketawe gedik* tokleh nak kabo la. Bak kata ade satu phrase yang Jann jumpe kat twitter, sbb cam kene je tu yang retweet
"Some of the best moments are the one you can't tell anyone about.."
Mintak maaf mintak ampun zahir dan batin. hihi.
Well basically that's it. Nak tak nak, I've already stepped into the 2nd Year. As much as I hate to admit, it's a fact that I can't just run away from, no? So, I wish and pray the best to my batchmates and may we succeed together in achieving the best, not only for the Pro Exam, but to be the best doctors of the world. Amin.
Not to forget, to the dearly beloved friends, ade yang 3rd Year MBBS, 4th Year Pharmacy, 1st Year MBBS, Foundation etc. All the best to allllll of us. Semoga Allah permudahkan perjalanan kita menuju ke kejayaan yang diimpikan, insyaALLAH
Ganbatte, minna ! oh and ganbarimasssu xD
As-Salamualykummm. apa khabarmu di sana? Lama sudah tak berjumpaa *nyanyi*
eh kemain lagi makcik ni menyanyi, padahal tengok title macam gelabah ayam takut ape.
Okay yeah so basically, ni bukan lah ade kaitan dengan hantu ataupun patung Annabelle.
tapi ni kire takut sebab Jann nak masuk 2nd Year.
Alhamdulillah, syukur sebab pass 1st Year. but you knowww, kechuutt perutt wehh.
Serious lah. Ini punye takut bukan la ngengade punye. =.= jangan salah paham.
Bila fikir2 balek, masuk seken yer ni, dengan Professional Exam nyer, dengan macam macam nye lah hai.
Tak tau kenapa tapi seriouslah takut yang amat. Terfikir gak la kan, wuuu will I be okayy? What happen kalau aku xleh nak adapt? xleh nak habis study?
(Ohooyy makcik punye pessimist sebenonye boleh tahan mintak pelempang kadang2)
*dabel headbang on the wall* okay penipu, ta buat pon. gimik je.
Aaaaaapa apa pon, I had a wonderful holiday I guess. Alhamdulillah well spent. Kalau pasal gumbira tu hihihi *ketawe gedik* tokleh nak kabo la. Bak kata ade satu phrase yang Jann jumpe kat twitter, sbb cam kene je tu yang retweet
"Some of the best moments are the one you can't tell anyone about.."
Mintak maaf mintak ampun zahir dan batin. hihi.
Well basically that's it. Nak tak nak, I've already stepped into the 2nd Year. As much as I hate to admit, it's a fact that I can't just run away from, no? So, I wish and pray the best to my batchmates and may we succeed together in achieving the best, not only for the Pro Exam, but to be the best doctors of the world. Amin.
Not to forget, to the dearly beloved friends, ade yang 3rd Year MBBS, 4th Year Pharmacy, 1st Year MBBS, Foundation etc. All the best to allllll of us. Semoga Allah permudahkan perjalanan kita menuju ke kejayaan yang diimpikan, insyaALLAH
Ganbatte, minna ! oh and ganbarimasssu xD
Sunday 4 August 2013
Tanjoubi Omedetou. . .?
I think I've found someone to say those phrases to.
"Umareta koto wo~
Deaeta koto wo~
Ima soba ni ireru koto, arigatou~
Kimi no HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Ichi nen ni ichido no mahou tokubetsu na hi~"
"Umareta koto wo~
Deaeta koto wo~
Ima soba ni ireru koto, arigatou~
Kimi no HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Ichi nen ni ichido no mahou tokubetsu na hi~"
Woohoo~
Tanjoubi Omedetou ! :D
May Allah bless thee and thy family here and hereafter.
And all the best in your future undertakings.
*throws confetti*
Sunday 28 July 2013
The last 10 days of Ramadhan
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
As-Salamualykum and hellow melloww peeps.
Wow, pejam celik pejam celik, I took a peek at the Hijriah calendar, it's already the 20th Ramadhan.
Subhanallah, how time flies.
Rasa macam baru seminggu puasa pon ada @.@
Well anywaaays, 10 hari terakhir ni laaa adalah yang paling penting buat umat Islam dalam bulan yang mulia ini. You oughta know why la kan. It's said in the Al-Quran itself, satu malam yang 1000 kali lebih baik daripada malam malam yang lain. Subhanallah.
So, why not take this opportunity to hunt for this night and berdoa banyak2, moge2 Allah makbulkan segala yang terbuku dalam nurani? InsyaALLAH, bi iznillah.
Tapi kan, dalam pada last last ni jugak laa dengau kabaunye orang ramai tak pegi solat tarawikh di masjid masjid.
Tapi kan juga, don't jump into conclusion.
Mungkin mereka sebenarnya melakukan ibadah sunat di rumah, mungkin lagi banyak? Possible juga mereka melakukan ibadah secara berterusan dirumah sampai la ke tengah-tengah malam.
Wallahu'alam. Usah bersangka buruk. Kadang-kadang kita nampak orang tu tak melakukan apa yg kebiasaan kita buat mungkin sebab dia buat sesuatu yang lebih luar kebiasaan tanpa kita ketahui and mungkin orang itu lebih mulia darjatnya disisi Allah. Sapaaa yang rugi?
haha. reflect reflect. *tersepak diri sendiri jugak sebenaunye*
Apa apa pun, marilah kite sama2 mengejar peluang untuk mencari malam Lailatul Qadr ni togede gede~
InsyaALLAH.
Salam Ramadhan buat kalian yang membaca~
As-Salamualykum and hellow melloww peeps.
Wow, pejam celik pejam celik, I took a peek at the Hijriah calendar, it's already the 20th Ramadhan.
Subhanallah, how time flies.
Rasa macam baru seminggu puasa pon ada @.@
Well anywaaays, 10 hari terakhir ni laaa adalah yang paling penting buat umat Islam dalam bulan yang mulia ini. You oughta know why la kan. It's said in the Al-Quran itself, satu malam yang 1000 kali lebih baik daripada malam malam yang lain. Subhanallah.
So, why not take this opportunity to hunt for this night and berdoa banyak2, moge2 Allah makbulkan segala yang terbuku dalam nurani? InsyaALLAH, bi iznillah.
Tapi kan, dalam pada last last ni jugak laa dengau kabaunye orang ramai tak pegi solat tarawikh di masjid masjid.
Tapi kan juga, don't jump into conclusion.
Mungkin mereka sebenarnya melakukan ibadah sunat di rumah, mungkin lagi banyak? Possible juga mereka melakukan ibadah secara berterusan dirumah sampai la ke tengah-tengah malam.
Wallahu'alam. Usah bersangka buruk. Kadang-kadang kita nampak orang tu tak melakukan apa yg kebiasaan kita buat mungkin sebab dia buat sesuatu yang lebih luar kebiasaan tanpa kita ketahui and mungkin orang itu lebih mulia darjatnya disisi Allah. Sapaaa yang rugi?
haha. reflect reflect. *tersepak diri sendiri jugak sebenaunye*
Apa apa pun, marilah kite sama2 mengejar peluang untuk mencari malam Lailatul Qadr ni togede gede~
InsyaALLAH.
Salam Ramadhan buat kalian yang membaca~
Surah Al-Qadr - سورة القدر
Dengan nama Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Mengasihani.
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
Sesungguhnya Kami telah menurunkan (Al-Quran) ini pada Malam Lailatul-Qadar,
We have indeed revealed this (Message) in the Night of Power:
Dan apa jalannya engkau dapat mengetahui apa dia kebesaran Malam Lailatul-Qadar itu?
And what will explain to thee what the night of power is?
Malam Lailatul-Qadar lebih baik daripada seribu bulan.
The Night of Power is better than a thousand months.
Pada Malam itu, turun malaikat dan Jibril dengan izin Tuhan mereka, kerana membawa segala perkara (yang ditakdirkan berlakunya pada tahun yang berikut);
Therein come down the angels and the Spirit by Allah.s permission, on every errand:
Sejahteralah Malam (yang berkat) itu hingga terbit fajar!
Peace!...This until the rise of morn!
COPIED FROM : http://www.surah.my/97
Wednesday 24 July 2013
Some random schnitzels
"Umareta koto wo~
Deaeta koto wo~
Ima soba ni ireru koto, arigatou~
Kimi no HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Ichi nen ni ichido no mahou tokubetsu na hi~"
I just love this part of the Happy Birthday song by NEWS.
Tak paham? oh. silalah paham. This is the translation :
"For being born~
For being able to meet you~
That I can be by your side now, Thank you~
It's your HAPPY BIRTHDAY
A magical, special day that happens only once a year~"
:D best en en?
I have a wish that I could give this to someone's special's birthday,
to show the appreciation for being born. for being here.
well, you know you got this feeling whether you should give to certain people, macam tu. well I haven't found someone to give this, yet :|
so, yeah I'm waiting.
but then, to all my friends,
Umarete kite, arigatou~ *bows and smiles*
Thank you for being born.
Thank you for being here.
Thank you for being a part of this crazy chaotic friend of yours.
EVERYBODY DANCE NOWW!
eh.
Deaeta koto wo~
Ima soba ni ireru koto, arigatou~
Kimi no HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Ichi nen ni ichido no mahou tokubetsu na hi~"
I just love this part of the Happy Birthday song by NEWS.
Tak paham? oh. silalah paham. This is the translation :
"For being born~
For being able to meet you~
That I can be by your side now, Thank you~
It's your HAPPY BIRTHDAY
A magical, special day that happens only once a year~"
:D best en en?
I have a wish that I could give this to someone's special's birthday,
to show the appreciation for being born. for being here.
well, you know you got this feeling whether you should give to certain people, macam tu. well I haven't found someone to give this, yet :|
so, yeah I'm waiting.
but then, to all my friends,
Umarete kite, arigatou~ *bows and smiles*
Thank you for being born.
Thank you for being here.
Thank you for being a part of this crazy chaotic friend of yours.
EVERYBODY DANCE NOWW!
eh.
Monday 22 July 2013
Motives unknown
"People like us we've gotta stick together
Keep your head up, nothing lasts forever
Here's to the damned, to the lost and forgotten
It's hard to get high when you're living on the bottom"
#np Kelly Clarkson - People Like Us
A sad song it seems but somehow, I like it.
Bagi semangat bagi yang terasa diri itu misfits of the world.
(Y) keep your heads up people! :D
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As-Salamualykum~
Hellow mellow peeps of the universe.
It's the 14th of Ramadhan already. dah 13 hari kite puase, Alhamdulillah. masih lagi diberi peluang untuk berpuasa and menikmati Ramadhan yang mulia nehh.
Tadah tangan.
Ucap syukur, Alhamdulillah.
Sekalipun hanya bende remeh di pandangan orang, namun itulah yang Allah inginkan.
Menginginkan hamba-hambaNYA menadah tangan bersyukur kepadaNYA,
dan semoga itu menjadi penyebab rezeki kita bertambah, insyaALLAH.
Soooo, basically, today's post not much of a motive.
How's life been? I must say, so far, nothing breaks me down I guess. Been wonderful.
So today no emotional posts.
hewhewhew~ *gelak sopan santun*
Tujuan post is sebab bosan melanda lah kot. haha. Not feeling like drawing anything nor watching anything. tu yang dok meloratkan diri nak post kat sini, hoping yang membaca ni turut merasa kebosanan yang dialami. ewah. haha. (x tau nak cakap kesian ke kurang ajau kat makcik nih)
Apa apa pon, Jann wish All the best to you people out there in facing whatever that may come as you live your life to the fullest.
(tetibe nak wish wish ni pon xtau pasai pa. nampak tak takde keje)
Okaaay, makcik xmau bebel banyak, dah nampak orang menguap mcm hippopopopotamus.
Adieu~
Keep your head up, nothing lasts forever
Here's to the damned, to the lost and forgotten
It's hard to get high when you're living on the bottom"
#np Kelly Clarkson - People Like Us
A sad song it seems but somehow, I like it.
Bagi semangat bagi yang terasa diri itu misfits of the world.
(Y) keep your heads up people! :D
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As-Salamualykum~
Hellow mellow peeps of the universe.
It's the 14th of Ramadhan already. dah 13 hari kite puase, Alhamdulillah. masih lagi diberi peluang untuk berpuasa and menikmati Ramadhan yang mulia nehh.
Tadah tangan.
Ucap syukur, Alhamdulillah.
Sekalipun hanya bende remeh di pandangan orang, namun itulah yang Allah inginkan.
Menginginkan hamba-hambaNYA menadah tangan bersyukur kepadaNYA,
dan semoga itu menjadi penyebab rezeki kita bertambah, insyaALLAH.
Soooo, basically, today's post not much of a motive.
How's life been? I must say, so far, nothing breaks me down I guess. Been wonderful.
So today no emotional posts.
hewhewhew~ *gelak sopan santun*
Tujuan post is sebab bosan melanda lah kot. haha. Not feeling like drawing anything nor watching anything. tu yang dok meloratkan diri nak post kat sini, hoping yang membaca ni turut merasa kebosanan yang dialami. ewah. haha. (x tau nak cakap kesian ke kurang ajau kat makcik nih)
Apa apa pon, Jann wish All the best to you people out there in facing whatever that may come as you live your life to the fullest.
(tetibe nak wish wish ni pon xtau pasai pa. nampak tak takde keje)
Okaaay, makcik xmau bebel banyak, dah nampak orang menguap mcm hippopopopotamus.
Adieu~
Sunday 21 July 2013
Ramadhan Kareem~
Whenever you feel lost,
not knowing what to do,
or losing your vision of life,
remember that ;
It's all back to the Almighty Allah.
Whenever you feel scared,
that you might be astray,
or trapped in sorrow,
remember that ;
It's all back to the Almighty Allah.
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Salam Ramadhan Kareem to all Muslims out there.
May this Ramadhan is far more meaningful with extra devotions to the Almighty Allah.
Wajib or Sunat, put extra effort in doing them.
InsyaALLAH. May Allah bless us in this holy month of Ramadhan.
Happy Fasting !
not knowing what to do,
or losing your vision of life,
remember that ;
It's all back to the Almighty Allah.
Whenever you feel scared,
that you might be astray,
or trapped in sorrow,
remember that ;
It's all back to the Almighty Allah.
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Salam Ramadhan Kareem to all Muslims out there.
May this Ramadhan is far more meaningful with extra devotions to the Almighty Allah.
Wajib or Sunat, put extra effort in doing them.
InsyaALLAH. May Allah bless us in this holy month of Ramadhan.
Happy Fasting !
Saturday 15 June 2013
What's on my mind?
I think I might have just fallen in love again,
but
I don't want things to be awkward between us.
but
I don't want things to be awkward between us.
Sunday 5 May 2013
The problem of a 20-year-old cherie~
As-Salamualykum. . .
Post kali ini pasal apa pula, hmm? Feeling a bit curious now aren't we?
Well, stay tuned. It's just gonna be about me and what I've been feeling all awhile now.
Bila kenang-kenang balik,
Bila ingat-ingat balik,
The 'me' in the past and the present.
I often thought
"Aku bukanlah sebaik yang kau sangka. What you've expected of me might turn out something that you've never expect of me."
Too scared to admit my own weakness.
"Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you"
I asked myself which will be asked to you :
"If you witness my weaknesses and my secrets, will you not turn and look away?"
"Will you stay?"
I want to become a better person by hoping someone better will guide me.
But will this better person would want to accept this lowly species of human such as myself?
One who shows nothing of her weakness, not the worst part of it.
One who is so afraid to take risk on what the outcome would be.
One who longed someone who would accept her the way she is.
I'm almost 20 now and this turned out to be my fear.
Ah come on! Umur dah 20, kawan pon ramai dah kahwin and tunang and etc. ada yang da ade putera sulung dah ponn. Why not should I think about this?
Bukann nak kawen skrg pon =.= just that, having a moment to think of this suddenly triggered my emotions. Seriously, I may look all giddy and happy and all but what's inside of me is something the opposite. I'm afraid of the future that I might lose my way from the Almighty. When I die, will I go to Jannah? With the sins I've committed, I know I'm not suit to be in His Jannah.
"I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes"
Ya Allah. Astaghfirullah. Forgive this humble lowly servant of Yours and grant me a zauj that will accept my weakness and help to guide me to You, ya Rabbi.
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Maybe I shouldn't expect much from you. If I expect too much, I'll just hurt again like what happened before. I'll keep on praying to have someone who could bring out the better part of me.
Post kali ini pasal apa pula, hmm? Feeling a bit curious now aren't we?
Well, stay tuned. It's just gonna be about me and what I've been feeling all awhile now.
Bila kenang-kenang balik,
Bila ingat-ingat balik,
The 'me' in the past and the present.
I often thought
"Aku bukanlah sebaik yang kau sangka. What you've expected of me might turn out something that you've never expect of me."
Too scared to admit my own weakness.
"Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you"
I asked myself which will be asked to you :
"If you witness my weaknesses and my secrets, will you not turn and look away?"
"Will you stay?"
I want to become a better person by hoping someone better will guide me.
But will this better person would want to accept this lowly species of human such as myself?
One who shows nothing of her weakness, not the worst part of it.
One who is so afraid to take risk on what the outcome would be.
One who longed someone who would accept her the way she is.
I'm almost 20 now and this turned out to be my fear.
Ah come on! Umur dah 20, kawan pon ramai dah kahwin and tunang and etc. ada yang da ade putera sulung dah ponn. Why not should I think about this?
Bukann nak kawen skrg pon =.= just that, having a moment to think of this suddenly triggered my emotions. Seriously, I may look all giddy and happy and all but what's inside of me is something the opposite. I'm afraid of the future that I might lose my way from the Almighty. When I die, will I go to Jannah? With the sins I've committed, I know I'm not suit to be in His Jannah.
"I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes"
Ya Allah. Astaghfirullah. Forgive this humble lowly servant of Yours and grant me a zauj that will accept my weakness and help to guide me to You, ya Rabbi.
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Maybe I shouldn't expect much from you. If I expect too much, I'll just hurt again like what happened before. I'll keep on praying to have someone who could bring out the better part of me.
Thursday 4 April 2013
Warning : Emotional Crap Up Ahead. Do not proceed if you hate rubbish talks.
As-Salamualykum.
Hmm. Now why is it that we can feel the pain in our hearts when we were hurt? Whilst all these emotions are non-visible. Now, why is it?
If there's a thing I really suck at is maintaining friendship. No, honestly it's true. I have no idea why my big mouth always acting so big and made it that way.
Bak kata orang, "weh mulut minah nih takda insurans."
Some would say, "naaah you won't hurt a fly".
Dude, please. You know NOTHING about me.
Then, when they kept on being nice to me, saying I'm this and that, and once I disappoint them by showing my true self unintentionally, I end up hurting myself as they walk away.
Ever felt that feeling before? Yeah, I'm having it now. Always had them, actually. It's not them I hate, it's me who never seems to stop the flow is what I hate the most.
And when this happens, Rascal Flatts' song will suddenly ring in my head :
"What hurts the most, is being so close.
And having so much to say.
And watching you walk away"
Sometimes I thought "Sebab ni lah kau tak pernah ade kawan baik which lasts till now. Everyone's sick of your attitude. But you never seem to try and change" kind of thought. It hurts. And it's no use crying.
Again yeah, another emotional post is on. Kan dah cakap.
YOU.HAVE.BEEN.WARNED.
Haha.
Maybe that's all for today.
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#np Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most
Hmm. Now why is it that we can feel the pain in our hearts when we were hurt? Whilst all these emotions are non-visible. Now, why is it?
If there's a thing I really suck at is maintaining friendship. No, honestly it's true. I have no idea why my big mouth always acting so big and made it that way.
Bak kata orang, "weh mulut minah nih takda insurans."
Some would say, "naaah you won't hurt a fly".
Dude, please. You know NOTHING about me.
Then, when they kept on being nice to me, saying I'm this and that, and once I disappoint them by showing my true self unintentionally, I end up hurting myself as they walk away.
Ever felt that feeling before? Yeah, I'm having it now. Always had them, actually. It's not them I hate, it's me who never seems to stop the flow is what I hate the most.
And when this happens, Rascal Flatts' song will suddenly ring in my head :
"What hurts the most, is being so close.
And having so much to say.
And watching you walk away"
Sometimes I thought "Sebab ni lah kau tak pernah ade kawan baik which lasts till now. Everyone's sick of your attitude. But you never seem to try and change" kind of thought. It hurts. And it's no use crying.
Again yeah, another emotional post is on. Kan dah cakap.
YOU.HAVE.BEEN.WARNED.
Haha.
Maybe that's all for today.
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#np Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most
Monday 11 February 2013
Unexpected Comeback
Etto. . . As-Salamualykumm.
Ano. . . I've come back? Yes, that's it. I am back *cakap ala2 Arnold Susah-nak-eja* I'M BACKK.
"Okay, so kauu da balik, so what? Nak kene celebrate ke? Nak sediakan confetti?"
Ciss. Shut up. Meanie T^T
Well, let's say this again. Blog ini akan menjadi sebuah diary which is readable by all. So, like I said, A DIARY. So, meaning, it's mine, it's what I feel. Kalau rasa rasa tak appropriate, do let me know in a friendly manner, kadang2 tak sengaja terlepas taip lah kann. Al-maklum la, taip dengan penuh emosi, otak bercelaru whatnot lah kann.
So, as for today, maybe tak ade ape lah kot nak beremosi. Semalam tengah emo habis habisan tapi sebab malas nak bukak laptop punye pasal, hilang lah dikau dari pandangan. HAHA. Jann ade la jugak thought about writing a diary but uh, malas nak tulis. Takut memula je rajin, then lama lama say goodnight and goodbye lah kann sebab leceh kene tulis panjang panjang. Hehe~
Etto, I guess that's all for today. If you ever look forward to my rants and raves, *bows* I appreciate it very much, thank you. Tapi Jann bolehh la rasa it won't be long cause it'll be alllllll emotional posts bla bla bla like a grandma bebel cucu anak bising satu rumah.
Sore dake, have a nice day people. ^^
*waves*
Ano. . . I've come back? Yes, that's it. I am back *cakap ala2 Arnold Susah-nak-eja* I'M BACKK.
"Okay, so kauu da balik, so what? Nak kene celebrate ke? Nak sediakan confetti?"
Ciss. Shut up. Meanie T^T
Well, let's say this again. Blog ini akan menjadi sebuah diary which is readable by all. So, like I said, A DIARY. So, meaning, it's mine, it's what I feel. Kalau rasa rasa tak appropriate, do let me know in a friendly manner, kadang2 tak sengaja terlepas taip lah kann. Al-maklum la, taip dengan penuh emosi, otak bercelaru whatnot lah kann.
So, as for today, maybe tak ade ape lah kot nak beremosi. Semalam tengah emo habis habisan tapi sebab malas nak bukak laptop punye pasal, hilang lah dikau dari pandangan. HAHA. Jann ade la jugak thought about writing a diary but uh, malas nak tulis. Takut memula je rajin, then lama lama say goodnight and goodbye lah kann sebab leceh kene tulis panjang panjang. Hehe~
Etto, I guess that's all for today. If you ever look forward to my rants and raves, *bows* I appreciate it very much, thank you. Tapi Jann bolehh la rasa it won't be long cause it'll be alllllll emotional posts bla bla bla like a grandma bebel cucu anak bising satu rumah.
Sore dake, have a nice day people. ^^
*waves*
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